Sicklullabye

So here I am. It's 1 AM and I have to wake up to babysit Lucas at 5:30. What am I doing up so late you might ask? Well... I have a boyfriend who doesn't understand the length and breadth of my neuroticism and wants to be outside right now. So I lie awake staring into the blackness of my room worrying. And he says things like "shut the fuck up, you don't need me to sleep" and "just go to bed, I'll be there in a bit". The nerve of him. The minutes ticking by into hours into long l o n g hours. God, I hate my life. I have nothing left to live for in all reality. I am in a world that doesn't need me, with a person who doesn't want me, b

Congratulations for making this world a stage When the curtain falls our life will vanish in applause Let this horrid scene be a one that last forever Last forever Triumph has it's many faces There's only one that will decide Triumph has it's many faces There's only one that is divine We can try and escape This fate has us by the throat I have never doubted death Never doubted death Look to the sky say your fucking prayers Say your fucking prayers Devour what you thought was right A pathetic script written by our fathers If only there was hope for our souls We would be home again And I've seen beyond these walls Take me hom

Love and happiness are a fucking myth unless you fall in love with your fucking self.